经历

九月了， 2016年就只剩下四分之一。

这一段日子我到底做过了什么在我的记忆力最深刻印象的东西？

我想顶多只是第一次打工，和第一次一个人旅行吧。

第一次打工就病了三次、 第一次打工就练成了“狮子吼”、第一次看到这么多孩子那么天真善良、第一次打工就面对了种种不同的前辈、第一次打工就必须应付各个家长不同的要求......
不过，一切都结束了。回头一看，我还是要谢谢自己敢敢去做、敢敢做白痴，还有谢谢老板和老板娘的宽待，以及经验丰富的同事们（在那里我是最年轻的）。

第一次的单人旅行，回想起来我还真是有那种胆量自己去闯天下，哈！
第一次单人旅行的神秘感依然清晰，好怀念那段时间一个人到处看看，拍拍照，每条路都是不同的奇遇，惊喜连连，却忘了要去找好吃的。 这个以旅客的身份去游玩的男孩，非常感谢路上的一景一物教会他的事。 希望他一直都保持着一颗善良的心，一个好奇的态度去面对世界大大小小的事情。

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梦里的彩虹城堡 The Rainbow Castle in the Dream

梦里的彩虹城堡，你现在还在那儿吗？

男孩好久都没来造访你了，你是否还挂念着男孩？

你的外观还是跟以前一样，仍然是五彩缤纷吗？

如果可以，男孩希望你的外观依旧宏伟，依旧羡煞旁人。

请原谅男孩这么久都没来探险了。

以前的男孩现在肩负着不同的使命，不能成日到你那里玩。

小时候，男孩在城堡里吹过无数的泡泡，他一边许愿，一边用力地吹。日积月累，整个大厅都飘着男孩所吹出的泡泡，那时候的情景是多么的美丽。

男孩在想，以前到那里吹过的泡泡依然存在？

那些装了男孩梦想的泡泡，会不会因为岁月的考验而爆破了；还是因为男孩未完成的任务所以还在大厅里四处漂浮？

男孩不知道，他已经很久没到城堡里吹泡泡了。

无论城堡现在如何，男孩都希望它不会消失，因为这毕竟是因男孩而出现的梦想世界。
那时候是多么的壮观，多么的宏伟。
只是，那是昔日的光辉。

Dear Rainbow Castle, how are you?
It has been a long time since the young boy came and pay a visit. Do you still miss him?

The young boy hopes that you are still looking the same as the last time he saw you.
Are the Bubbles of Dreams still floating around the hall? Or have those bubbles popped out long time ago?

The boy who was once young now wishes that you are still there, with the vibrant colours still remain. Yet, that was just a glory of the past.

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Restless May 无休止工作的五月

六月已进入第五天，很庆幸六月头学校假期的来到。 

五月正好碰上学生考试的时候，学生们还真是对考试的概念完全一窍不通。 

也许我们大人经历过无数次的测验，所以想把一切自以为是的观念硬塞入这些年纪轻轻的孩子们脑里。

这五月份，我挣扎在给予无数次的复习和完成功课的矛盾里。

结果学生和老师“两败俱伤”，各个回家向爸妈喊累。

值得骄傲的是，学生们都很认真，很努力去完成考试，也获取不错的成绩。

每到夜晚的时候，心里都在想是不是自己太过强逼孩子们，但每次还没想完的时候就进入了梦乡。工作时候倦意频频，彻底地折腾啊！

五月份，您还真让我身心疲惫！

不过还是谢谢您让我无法埋怨，让我真正的知道原来做好自己的份内岗位能够带来无比的满足感。

五月已逝，欢迎您大驾光临，六月大人！

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Appreciation Post : Friends

Have been flipping the school's magazine over and over again. Why do I do that? Because I'm a type of person that likes to keep on viewing old stuffs and it could not be help. 

Although my STPM journey has come to an end, it will still not be enough without an appreciation post to my friends who have stayed side by side together to face the hardships. 

The first and foremost, Ian. A dreamer I would say. The best buddy ever! 

Thank you so much for enduring my bad behaviours, listening to my non-stop complaints about life, giving me a ride back home when I needed it, and most importantly, being my co-mate throughout this 1.5 years. Thank you for being my real-life English dictionary and worked hard enough and earned yourself a high score in MUET. You always have the craziest ideas in your mind and have not ever fail to surprise me each time when we are chatting. Well, sometimes it really does annoys me but I'm glad I knew you since Form 1. Thanks for giving me loads of suggestion even though most of them seemed irrelevant, but honestly, some of them are quite useful and full of evilness.  An eater with a stomach which knows no limits (this is no joke). Dear Ian, if you are reading this,  I hope you will find satisfaction in what you are dreaming of and have faith in yourself. I admire your craziness and please keep on surprises me okay? 

Dear Thamarai, thank you for staying in Biology class until the end. 

Thank you so much for this whole path. Thank you for sharing the hard work. Together, we did a marvellous job in this one and a half year and I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did. Thank you for all the efforts you have done. I knew you were strugglingin this journey so the only thing I am capable of if to give you loads of motivation. I just hope you did not take my motivations as words of anger. Hahaha! Thank you for buying the insects and decorating the box. Thank you for not complaining as we were conducting quadrat sampling experiment in the scorching weather. What else could I say? THANK YOU FOR BEING MY CLASSMATE UNTIL THE END!!! I really appreciate it! I wish you are able to get the course you want in university and don't forget, our deal is still on. 

CS, the intelligent girl that has plan B for everything. 

Always being careful and mindful, she has never been afraid of doing anything she thinks is right. I considered myself being very lucky to know her and be one of her friends. She has a remarkable leadership skills and yet modesty is her style. And never to forget, always being helpful and kind. A maths expert who did not leave me stranded when I'm facing maths problem. Thank you for sharing loads of stuffs in STPM. Thank you for being the champion of Science Stream. Thank you for being diligent and earned the trophy that you deserve it! Dear CS, please continue your enthusiasm in doing the things you love to do. Engineering is definitely your strength. Master it in the hard way and contribute your skills to the society.  I know that someday you will succeed it what you wish for. 

The Big Four, QO, JW, KW, KL.

I admire your fellowship, always making decision together. The bonds that the four of you have amazed me. It is hard to see a group of four walking and talking together, teasing each other without much efforts. QO, thank you for the laughter you had brought to everyone. JW, thank you for sharing your thoughts. KW and KL, thank you for always making me confuse to find out who is elder and younger, Best of luck!

To Roshan, thank you so much for sharing your expertise in computer-related problems. Those short-cuts you have taught me came in handy. I won't forget that!

Maggie, thank you for sharing your tips on doing the PA coursework. I hope you get your scholarship!

Zainul, thanks for being our Head Prefect. You are the best photographer and always have tons of creative ideas that pretty amazed me. I don't really know how it feels like working behind the scene and not having you in the big picture makes me feel bad about it. But, I want to thank you for all that you have done. Thank you for being a "big brother".

Dear Siti Patima and Azila, thank you for being my associates! Thank you for enduring my stubborn attitude that always want to carry the whole burden all by myself. Thank you for all the help you two had offered and I couldn't say anything except I do really appreciate it. Keep up the good work and all the best in your future undertakings.

To my committee members of Sixth Former Society, thank you so much for being supportive and passionate throughout the whole journey. All the activities would not have been done if it wasn't for them who helped out as much as possible. Thank you for showing me that teamwork is an essential element when it comes to running a huge event.

To the other Form 6 mates of SMK Alam Megah. thank you for being a part of my life. Thank you for the small chit-chat. Thank you for giving a smile when I smiled quite ugly at you.  Thank you for all the hard work you guys have put in in your studies and always being cheerful no matter what happens.

Humans are not solo being, I believe they prefer living in a group rather than being a solitary being. Friends exist for a reason, they provide colours into your life, they bring joy, sometimes anger, jealousy and sadness. The most important thing is, you earned a very special gift. The gift of friendship!

Thank you so much for reading this. It was a sweet-bitter journey and yet, I only remembered the happy moments I had with my friends. After all, too much sadness in your memory might lead to depression. Hahaha!! xD

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念

“念” 可以构词成 “思念”、 “想念” 、 “怀念”、“眷念”。

“念”字，上有“今”；下有“心”，是否代表着今日的心在想起某个人或事物？

四月，我失去了爷爷。 

对爷爷的印象大概就是刻板的严肃，不多话。

爷爷所说的广东话只有奶奶、爸爸、姑姑以及伯伯们听得懂。他说的不像是在港剧里所听见的那样，爸爸称那是古老的 si hak wa （用广东话来说）。

可有两句我却听得懂的就是 “努力读书” 和 “不要贪玩” 。

以前无知地认为听听就好，可是现在再也听不见他说这些话了。

我怀念他每次买猪肠粉给我们吃，

怀念他每次在新年时给的一封红包， 

怀念他每次在庭院里等我们一家人的归来，

怀念每次要回 Subang Jaya 时硬硬给他一个拥抱，

怀念他每次放屁时都可以如此潇洒地走过我的面前不当作一回事……

如今这些一举一动不能够体验，只能回味。

我会永远惦记着您的，爷爷。

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足

四月的第二個星期就這樣結束了，好快好快。

沒想到令人感到疲憊的星期一和令人振奮的星期五原來可以很快的到來。

以前讀書的時候一直認為時間過得特慢，現在在外打工雖然還是不喜歡Monday，但總覺得Friday靜悄悄就報到了。

是什麽原因呢？

還在迷茫要走哪一條路嗎？ 仍然隨波逐流嗎？
在這世界，你是否問過自己到底能為誰做出改變？
怎樣才算滿足？
什麽是一大筆的資產？
什麽是年輕美麗的伴侶？
什麽是至高無上的權位？

對我而言， 三餐溫飽、溫暖的庇護所、家人和朋友既是您最大的資產；擁有樂觀的靈魂就是您年輕美麗的伴侶；自愛和尊重自己就是至高無上的權位。


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惜

珍惜當下的美好，用你喜歡的方式去記下這些事。
同時也不要否定，曾經犯過的種種的失與誤。

人生不能只是100分完美；也不會只有100分倒楣。
不用執著于完美無缺的標準，人生有本來就是以喜、怒、哀、懼繪出的一幅畫。

誰說我們的畫需要像達文西、畢卡索那樣展現在眾人的面前？
自己的畫留給懂得欣賞的人就好了。

Treasure the good and the bad the way you want.
After all, life is made up of 4 ingredients : Happiness, Anger, Sorrow,  Fear.
Your story should be told to the ones that know you well.

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Appreciation Post : Teachers

I'll be starting to blog an appreciation post about the teachers who had guided, tutored and aided me throughout the whole process of being a Sixth Former in SMK Alam Megah. This is going to be a very long post, and I hope you won't get bored of this post. Enjoy reading

I started studying in Pre-University of SMK Alam Megah on mid-May 2014. Going through STPM was neither my first choice nor my last choice. However, after the whole journey, I felt I have made an achievement that I am proud of. Of course, this whole thing will not happen without meeting the people who brought me many lessons and guidance. 

I remembered the first day heading to Orientation Day, I was warmly welcomed by the Senior Assistant of Form 6, Pn. Siti Nourbayah binti Abu Bakar. She is a very kind and sincere teacher and always put on her best smile wherever she goes. She often encourages us to perform our best in everyday's problems no matter how hard it could be. She can be quite strict sometimes, when students did not obey what a pre-u student should do in school. Yet, she always welcomes new suggestions and accept it willingly by giving advices on what and how to do a certain thing. The thing I admire about Pn. Siti Nourbayah is that she always brings us happiness and warm when we felt gloomy or sad. She never comments anything bad in front of anyone. She truly wants more students to know what is Form 6 actually about and how does it change a person's life. The lesson I learnt from her is that you have to put on your best smile even though you are in the stage of jeopardy or sadness because that's what makes life worth treasure for. No matter how bad the situation is, you have to be optimistic and try one more time before saying give up.

"I hate people when they said Form 6 is their last choice rather than their first choice. Once you went through the tough process, you will find yourself even better and more disciplined. " Pn. Siti Nourbayah binti Abu Bakar 

Up next will be my class teacher plus my Chemistry teacher, Pn. Marini binti Abd Ghani. Thank you for being my class teacher during my Form 6's journey. She is the most fabulous chemistry teacher I ever met. She goes to classes with a laptop, an LCD projector and textbooks with colourful whiteboard marker pens. I would considered Pn. Marini to be the fashion pioneer of Form 6. If there is a award, I will definitely vote for her in the Best Fashion Award (Teachers Categories). Besides being highly-fashioned, Pn Marini always uses the easiest and simplest method to teach Chemistry. Oh, bear in mind that Chemistry is a super tough subject in Form 6! The concepts she used are according to the textbooks and she always gives us suggestion on how to write our essays. Plus, her colourful markers makes the notes on the board looks vibrant! To be honest, I am the one who always asked her questions and questions I encountered and she was blamed for taking other teachers' periods. Let me get this straight, I was the one who stopped her from stepping out the class because of my endless questions and yet she did not said a word about it. How could you find another teacher like her who is willing to use his/her precious time to explain the things you are not clear about? And one more thing, she is superb when it comes to managing money-related issues. My class had only 5 persons in the start and she suggested each gave RM10 as class fee and so we had RM50 as total. With that fifty ringgit, I would said she used it wisely and carefully. At the end of our Form 6, we were still able to get some of the money back with no problem at all. Until now, she still cares about her students and asks how are we doing so far. An important lesson that I learnt from her is that you shouldn't look at something so complex. Sometimes, you just have to view it in a simple way and that is what matters the most. Furthermore, she taught me to always be accurate in our findings because a single miscalculation or the wrong step might spoil the whole thing.

"One mark can turn the tables. So, be sure to do well and give your best shot every time! " Pn. Marini binti Abd Ghani

Another Chemistry teacher I would like to thank is Mr. Kan Cheong. Thank you for being my Chemistry teacher when Pn. Marini was not around in school. Mr. Kan did not say anything when he had to teach extra two students together with his seven original students. If it wasn't for him and Pn. Marini , I think I might be failing my Chemistry in all 3 terms. Mr. Kan teaches in a slow and easy-to-understand method by elaborating the topics he is teaching and often gives extra information like  how does a chemical equation is obtained etc. He is truly an expert in Chemistry. The extra information he gave can not be found in any Form 6's reference books and that gave me the lesson that we must explore beyond boundaries in order to discover more truth behind what was written. Knowing what was written in books is not enough to equip us to face the challenges in the world.

" Chemistry is not just knowing how to do equation and get any colour from mixing solutions together. You must always find more facts." Mr. Kan Cheong

Now is the time for the teachers who taught us Pengajian Am (PA), the subject that every Form 6 student must study. I had two teacher who taught me PA, Pn. Suriani binti Ibrahim for the 1st term and Pn. Roslinda binti Mohamad for the 2nd and 3rd Terms. Since this was the only subject in BM, I would say that I really did faced difficulties in this subject. The style of answering was totally "special" and it took me a long time to change my bombastic writing style. The good thing was both teachers have patience in teaching us, giving us notes and extra information so that we get the clear picture. Pn. Suriani was more to guiding us on how to write an essay as a sixth former should do. Her markings were strict but that helped me a lot during the first term. On the contrary, Pn. Roslinda preferred us to present our ideas out loud. Often, she will definitely want us to give opinions about a certain topic and would not be afraid to discuss it in the class. That is one bold and brave teacher if you ask me. These two teacher taught me one thing, always be curious! Yep, you are not reading it wrong. PA wasn't just a read-and-answer subject, so be sure to look for more information.

"Jangan sangka PA macam BM. Jika anda tidak memandang serius terhadap subjek ini, ucaplah selamat tinggal kepadanya." Pn. Suriani binti Ibrahim

"Yang! (Short for sayang) Cuba sedaya upaya untuk dapatkan keputusan yang cemerlang ya!"  Pn. Roslinda binti Mohamad 

My Form 6 journey wouldn't be complete without these Maths T teachers, Pn. Selvarani A/P T. Nadarajah and Pn. Goh Siew Kiew. Both teachers are the best Form 6 Maths T teachers I ever met. From the day I officially started my STPM journey, these teachers have put in so much works and efforts in teaching us day and night. Pn. Selvarani is the Maths T teacher of Biology Class while Pn Goh is the Maths T teacher of Physics Class. Since my class is small, we often joined classes with the Physics students to undergo topical tests after finishing each chapter. The discussion we had after obtaining the result made us knew what mistakes we have done. By presenting our answer on the board, Pn. Selvarani and Pn. Goh showed us how an actual candidate should answer in the test. Their dedications in educating us are just wordless and the only way to make them proud is to do our best in every exam. Mathematics T is a hardcore subject as well. The explanations given by the teachers are simple and understandable. Plus, as an STPM Science Stream candidate, we are required to complete 3 different Maths T assignments in each term respectively. I personally felt grateful for having these two teachers who are willing to spent time telling us on how to complete this tedious project works. Our Maths T project would be just a piece of junk if it wasn't for them who taught us on how to do the assignments. When we had free periods, either one of the teachers will use the period to teach Maths. We even had 6 periods of Maths for a day and that was the longest record. It cannot be help as the syllabus for Maths T is too compact. We even had a day for Maths T test and explanations during Sports Day. I remembered it vividly as the crowd was cheering so loud and we were not there to watch it. However, I see it as a sacrifice for us and the teachers in order to do well in the actual exam. Became one of their students is a privilege and honour. I am truly lucky enough to have two Maths teachers who did not gave up hope on anyone of us. Even though they are sometimes filled with other jobs given by superiors, they are willing to put the job aside and solve the problems we faced in Maths. If you ask me will I meet any other teachers that are willing to inspire us, I will say that for now, Pn. Selvarani and Pn. Goh are the teachers who gave us loads of inspiration and guidance throughout my Form 6 life and I bet my comrades will think that as well.

"Class, Maths T is not an easy subject and yet it is not a difficult subject if you are willing to put in a lot of hard work. You will not be able to taste success if you are lack of efforts and enthusiasm." Pn. Selvarani A/P T. Nadarajah

"There will be no fruits to harvest if you just plant the tree there and do not nurture it. Just like Maths, you can't just say you understand it. You must do a lot of exercises and practices in order to master it." Pn. Goh Siew Kiew

My selective subject was Biology and it could not be better without Pn. Maziah binti Muhamad Zain being my Biology teacher. How should I write this? I chose Biology because I am more interested in physiological processes rather than facing complex formulas and calculations in Physics. I am totally an idiot when it comes to reflection-related topic. I faced that when I had my SPM and I still dislike it. Throughout the whole journey, I was the only male student in Biology class and that made me wonder whether I made the right choice or not. But that negative thought did not affect me too long because I had a Biology teacher who is so passionate in teaching Biology. Although I did snoozed in her periods sometimes but she did not got mad about it. She knew that Biology needs a lot of mental strength to imagine what is really happening. One thing I must said that she did not gave up on the both of us (me and another classmate) until the end of our journey. She encouraged us to view videos on YouTube so that we would understand a topic much better. And I did! That method helped me a lot especially in Term 3. DNA replication, Biotechnology, Protein Synthesis etc. I still keep these videos in my phone, reminding me about those moment learning new things. The troubles we faced are just indescribable and I know my classmate and I will definitely understand. I did not regret choosing Biology as my elective subject. Why? The answer is simple, I had an amazing Biology teacher! 

"Keep up the good work! Do what you are capable of and I will pray the best for all of you!" Pn. Maziah binti Muhamad Zain

Malaysia University English Test (MUET). Although it was not a STPM subject, but every pre-university student, including sixth former needs to undergo this test in order to enter the courses they wanted in universities as it is one of the entry requirements. Initially, I thought that it would be a dull and boring one but it turned out I judged too quickly. My MUET teacher was Pn. Ng Swee Choo and she is totally one of a kind. I was impressed by not only her long teaching experience but also her unique teaching style. She also taught us new vocabularies and terms that we seldom use and it was actually fun and entertaining! She has a lot of knowledge and often shares her stories that we all liked to hear about it. She can be strict when it comes to grammatical errors and I always got myself a lot of red lines in my essays. xD Besides being strict, she also has a lot of ideas in her mind and she could speak it out as fast as lightning and it surprised me. I did learned a lot of things from Pn. Ng especially when it comes to speaking techniques, writing techniques and the method of generating loads of ideas in a short time. It was one of the experience that I will not forget unless I got Alzheimer's disease.

"English is a mad man's language." Pn. Ng Swee Choo

I would like to express my gratitude to another MUET teacher, Pn. Woo Sow Ying, for constantly asking how am I doing and sending motivational messages via WhatsApp. Although I was not taught by Pn. Woo, yet I always feel warm when I am having a small chit-chat with her directly or through social apps. She also bought us KitKat Rubies last year as we all scored well in MUET! Don't you feel appreciated when a teacher buys you something when you did a good job, even though you think it is not a big deal? Well, I do appreciate it!

"Life is not cruel. The challenges you are facing now make you more hard working so that you are able to strategize your future." Pn. Woo Sow Ying 

When I first started Form 6, there was one teacher who encouraged me to become a prefect and for that,  I would like to thank Pn. Teen Choo Shien. Initially, I just wanted to become an ordinary student but Pn. Teen gave me a chance and at last, I joined the Prefect Group of Form 6. Together with my partner, we did learned quite lot of things from her. Pn. Teen is a perfectionist and from that, I trained myself to do my job carefully. She also taught us on how to handle a assembly by giving us different roles to do, how to organize an event and documentation procedures.

"Do your part! Do not procrastinate!" Pn. Teen Choo Shien

Being a leader would not bring an impact to a club without the help of the advisers. And for this, I would like to thank Pn. Noraishah binti Nongshah as one of the advisers alongside with Pn. Woo and Pn. Teen. Thank you all so much for guiding me along this process and I hoped I did not caused any trouble to any one of the teachers. Pn. Noraishah is a very supportive teacher and always gives her inspiring comments about certain stuffs. She cares about the club and would always ask me what are the activities prepared for the members. Our trip to the Palace of Justice will not be made if it wasn't for her who gave us full support.

"Do you have any ideas on what to do? I would like to know what you have planned for the members." Pn. Noraishah binti Nongshah 

Thank you Pn. Rosliza binti Muda for bringing us scrumptious food when The Pre-University of SMK Alam Megah were having events.

Thank you En. Saipol Bahari bin Aziz for being the Senior Assistant of Co Curricular. Thank you for typing out our co curricular certificates and thank you for providing the co curricular activities.

Thank you Pn. Mazlinda binti Mohd Yusoff for always reminding us to clean our classroom and provided us the keys to the loo.

Thank you Pn. Rusmuna binti Musa for constantly suggesting me to become a doctor, but I don't think I will be capable of becoming one. Sorry to say that.

Thank you Pn. Norhayati binti Mohd Sabari, Pn. Wan Kamariah binti Wan Endut, Pn. Norepah binti Kasran for always smiling at this childish-looking student.

Finally, this post has comes to an end and it took me 2 months to finish this because there are just so many things I want to type it out. I'm not the person that like to say something out loud but I would like to say thank you to all the teachers who appeared in my Form 6 life. It was a journey worth to be treasured.

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我不是誰，我是我。

王維是詩佛，
李白是詩仙，
杜甫是詩聖，
而我依舊是我。


世界各地皆有惡行，
唯有自己維守堅貞。
我身處的灰色地帶，
時暗時亮讓我看不清，摸不著，也猜不透。


我無能效力，也無權改變。
我只能默默對抗四處的驟變。
也許我只是一粒微不足道的塵埃，
我依然會繼續做自己，決不妥協。


這是我的特寫，就由我來編寫。

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放假真爽！

第一次在三月的学校假期依然工作。鼓起已久的勇气向上司请一天假溺爱自己。

难得的假日，想出去走走看看，顺便奖赏自己去年所做付出的努力。

这一天，我自己一人就花了 RM 170， 真是无法想象日后该吃什么过日子。

不过既然是要宠自己，就去吃了很想吃很久的拉面。两个字，爽爆！吃完后傻傻地叫了一个昂贵的抹茶红豆冰淇淋。 喜欢的是那淡淡的抹茶味；憎恶的是那满足不了我的份量。

不甘心的我，逛书店近两小时，在那地方不停地转呀转。可能太久没买书读了，选了很久最后才选了两本，书店还真是一个鬼地方。

买书后想再吃冰淇淋，就去了红头发小丑叔叔快餐店买，然后redeem一个 fish fillet。我是为了冰淇淋才来的。 

不知怎么，心里还渴望吃到别的东西，但当时却不清楚自己要什么。呆人就是呆人，走了不久便想要喝冷饮。到了年轻人很喜欢去的店，选了蜂蜜绿茶。 

我喜欢的苦涩味，把一切的甜腻感都冲走。

生活里有甘苦的日子，可我还是好好地过活。也许拥有太多的甜蜜并不是一件好事。

一个人到处逛，到处游，能够看清的 是自己的心灵。

一个人随地走，随地看，已经找回了 那沉默许久的快乐。

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给予自己的鼓励

大小孩， 不要做自己，要成为更好的自己。

别人给你的快乐不能长久， 想要得到永恒的快乐必须不断地、谦虚地学习。

世界再怎么模糊不清，你必须拥有一个明锐的观察能力。

不是每一件事都只有坏与好而已， 用心感受每一天的旅程。

就算再怎么迷茫， 也不能迷失自己。聆听自己的心声，还要认真地思考。

重重的难关都必须披荆斩棘，相信是一股强大的能量，不要对自己失去信心。除了你自己，再也没有人能够为你绘出一片蓝天。

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花儿与我的故事

赏花者甚多，培花者甚少。

华盛开时采蜜者翩翩起舞；花凋零时吃叶者三餐温饱。

吾愿意当个培花者，也愿意成为赏花者。

当采花蜜者飞来，吾欣喜若狂；当吃叶者来袭，吾全力卫护。

不管需要的时间有多长，只要花儿愿意，子必定好好珍惜。

只可惜世上的花儿们都另有生存的法则。

子能做的是一旁支持和默默守护。

威廉何

A post about friendship. I'm truly sorry that I cannot translate it into English.

I just can say that friendship is a very fragile thing. 

Everyone has their own living directions and rules, we cannot interfere with one another.

The only thing that we can to is to give each other supports and care. 

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The View From a Friend (Part 2) *updated

Here is another post about the thoughts and opinions my friend has after went through STPM.

Let me introduce her shortly. 

She was a very intelligent Form 6 Physics student, and was crowned the "Queen of Science Stream". She was also the president of Form 6 Red Crescent Unit.

She alone can defeat 6 boys in her class without using much efforts. 

She always thinks precisely and carefully before doing anything and often suggested many useful ideas in class and also in co-curricular activities.

A cheerful person, being helpful and responsible plus not to forget, the Maths Genius. 

She just wants to be known as 快乐地狱 [Happy Hell]. (Please forgive her. She just want to use that name.) So here it goes, her thoughts and views about going through STPM. 

1.0 My journey in Form 6

To summarize, my journey in form 6 was enjoyable as well as challenging. In my first term, I had gone through a lot of ups and downs due to the brand new environment. New buildings, new friends, new system (having exams based on terms), new co-curricular activities plus new positions I was holding… Everything was new except that I was still in the same old school I had used to be when I had my secondary education.

At first, it seems impossible to cope with this form 6 life as time was short compared with form 5 life and there were many things need to catch up. (Both academic and co-curricular activities as I held two important positions that require thorough planning. Luckily, the supports from my friends have helped me to get through all these messy stuff. )  Step by step, I had gone through this form 6 and learned that one cannot worry too much about future when time has not come because miracle might happen sometimes. Well, you might think this is ridiculous but, yes, it does come true sometimes when you have done the best. (I score unbelievable well in my first term exam.) Think only the present and do what you must do or what you should do. Except the new environment that I need to cope with, my form 6 life became pleasant as time passed. (I am not saying that I am an optimist. Thanks to my sifu and friends, I learned to be one by trying to change my thought and behaviour. Of course, I am not a pessimist either. Just in between.)

I did faced hardships and difficulties in this one and a half year journey together with my family’s, teachers’ and friends’ supports. The hardship that I had faced at first was the time management. After passing few days and weeks in Form 6, I found myself running against time as I was too active in co-curricular activities until I had no time to relax and eventually got tensed up easily. I had gone through training and had been attending competitions.  (Even co-curricular activities require both mental and physical involvement.)  So, I suffered a lot in my first term actually. Of course, I had learnt my lesson in term 1 and I chose to ease myself a bit in 2nd and 3rd term by doing what was right and it required me to sacrifice the things I loved to do . Leadership problem is the other complication that I had met. (Some of the jobs I had not done well enough as I had lost my devotion and enthusiasm.) However, I felt I had grown up mentally and I learned ‘life lessons’ from my mistakes.

     I would like to take this opportunity to express my heartfelt gratitude to my sifu that has encouraged us to be more confidence in ourselves, to believe and trust him in his teachings. I have trusted and put all my faith in him as he had shown me what a teacher truly is. Not only does he teach physics, but also gradually yet firmly establish life lessons to all of the students he has taught. 

He did many of these life lessons teaching in term 1 by integrating it together with physics and it fits in well too!  For instance, your internal resistant must be equal to external resistant in order to get maximum power. AND this is how he relates it: Your relationship with family (internal relationship) should be equal to your relationship with friends (external relationship) so that you can live your life to the fullest. He is good isn’t it? 

Sadly, he gradually decreases all these teachings as we gone to term 2 and 3. Not only that, he always want us to think about some life aspects too. Sometimes, he throws me some life questions that have obvious answer yet it strikes me when I think about it.  Besides, he likes to share with us some quotes too like when the going gets tough, the tough get going. This is the first time I had been impacted by a teacher so intensely. He does not talk the talk, but walk the talk. Many times, he uses one stone to kill three birds (it means he did one action but done three things altogether).  He always notified us that results come from own persistence and resilience. Sometimes, he asks our opinions, thinks widely and judge in different perspective upon a single thing. He is observant as well as high IQ and EQ. He had been my role model in this form 6 life. To me, he is like a teacher, a father and a friend as well. He is someone that I cling and hold on to. 

2.0 The things I have learned throughout my whole Form 6 journey

I do not regret that I had chose Form 6 because I learned and experienced a lot from here. 

In Form 6, I learned that we need to do things effectively, productively and efficiently as time is short. Then, I experienced more in planning things from those co-curricular activities. Not only planning time, but also planning activities. Planning requires thorough thinking and trains you a lot in specialising a skill. (to think from others perspective or view.) 

Decision making is another aspects that I need to go through. I believe life is about deciding the path you want. There is no right or wrong when choosing a path. I have done mistakes in my Form 6 life too and I kept on reminding myself to avoid doing the same mistakes again. Definitely, Form 6 life is not about scoring; it is where you learn your soft skill too. If you want to learn anything, Be Truly Brave !  The last thing I would like to share is most people might say For 6 is hard and only a few people might say it is fun. To me, it is not hard nor easy.  It depends on how you think about it.

When you have two path to choose,

choose the difficult one,

so that you never regret.   

                                                          快乐地狱

I chose form 6 not because it is my last choice.
Actually, it was my first choice. 

快乐地狱

So that is it. I hope the stories that she shared will give you some guidance in your future undertakings. She is really a deep-thinker until today and I am lucky enough to be her comrade. 

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The View From a Friend (Part 1) *updated

Starting from this post onwards, I will be posting about the thoughts and opinions I have obtained from my comrades who have went through the tough process as every Sixth Former did from past to present.

Let me introduce him briefly.

He is one of my close friends and we met each other during secondary school and currently, we are still contacting each other . He is a very creative person and always outruns me with his illogical sense of humour (sometimes his reasons are very logical and it is really hard to tackle him back).

He studied in Physics class when he had his STPM and always successfully finds a way in every obstacle he had. This is one of the characters that I really like about him. He only wants to be known as SB7002/1007.

Here are his point of views. Enjoy reading!

1.0 My journey in Form 6

    Hahaha…. it was full of happiness, tears, fun, and most importantly, young and beautiful memories (haha I’m still not old yet at the time I type this). Well, what else to describe? Hmm…. let me think…. aha! Maybe I’ll just talk about my class then. I studied in Lower and Upper 6 Physics, which consisted of 7 students including me. Huh? You ask why my class has so little people in it? Oh, that’s because many of my friends (ex-classmates in Form 5) went to other higher institute such as Matriculation, (which I applied but didn’t get), foundations and other related courses of their dreams.... Although having just 7 people in my class, I find it a whole new experience as there was never so little students in a class before. This gives many new experiences and make me and my classmates even closer to one another, and we called ourselves "The Perfect Seven".

          
     My first semester in form 6 was not going smoothly as I did not adjusted myself to the environment even though it was the place I had my secondary education. Having going back to school made me realized that school is less intensive compared to working, and that made me slacked for a bit. But during my time at form 6, there were many activities that were organized by my school to train and guide us to be more prepared for working environment. I caught up a bit during the second semester, but it’s barely enough as it was just merely a breath I got as the learning gets even tougher. As the saying goes, when the going gets tough, the tough gets going. During the last semester, we (me and my fellow classmates) were already used to the classes and (maybe immune?) to the work given to us. Still, it is very challenging at times, as it was our last semester and our last efforts to go into public universities and towards a better future. Only those who were hardworking will reap their rewards next year March. I really hope that all of the Sixth Formers in my school got what they deserved after their countless efforts.   

2.0 The things I have learned throughout my whole Form 6 journey

     Well, there were many things I have learned during Form 6, such as teamwork (you definitely need this in a class of 7 person including yourself, going solo is not really good, unless you are very very confident and have the ability to do so).

Effective communication is vital, as it is also very important not to offend anybody and make as many friends as possible, as the saying goes, more friends more help.

Determination (never give up no matter what happens). 

Be helpful and thoughtful.

Be brave and bold (Speak up! Say it if you think you don’t know, or it’ll be even more harder to speak up if you did not take the first step towards it).

Initiative, (by being able to do work without having need to be reminded by others, in other words, independent).

            
     And also, not to forget, form 6 is not the same as form 5. You might get results you will be surprised of but remember, you’ll always have people who loves you supporting you, be it your family members such as parents, peers and teachers. Always learn to stand up after falling, you guys are still young and there is so much to see outside after the schooling lives…

KEEP MOVING FORWARD NO MATTER HOW ROUGH THE TIDE AHEAD IS. 


     Finally it’s time for conclusion! Well, as an ex-form 6 student, all I can say it is up to you and your decision as it is your life and your future. To wrap it all up, Form 6 education is some kind of extra intensive class of pre-U to better prepare you for the challenges ahead. For those who is considering to enter Form 6, think carefully before making any decision. Form 6 is no place for the lazy peoples, only for those who is hard working and truly dedicated. Thank you very much for reading this, and I wish you good luck in form 6 and your future!

Sincerely, 

SB7002/1007

 

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Summary for STPM Term 3

Term 3, I would say that we all did worked very hard in this term, mainly because it was the last term in our pre-university level. And to the juniors studying F6 out there, bear in mind that Repeat Papers for term 3 will not be provided starting from 2016 (which is this year). Although my batch is still able to repeat term 3's papers, but we all had a tough battle. We imagined that we can't repeat any papers and strived very hard for that reason. An advice for the juniors, please make sure that you are fully ready in this term if you don't want to have any regrets.

For Science Stream students, this term we had 2 Science projects (Chemistry & Physics / Biology), depends on what class you are in.

For Chemistry, we had a project with the theme "SOIL".
Physics project was related about SOUNDWAVE.
Biology project was about collecting insects from 10 different families and leaves from 10 different orders.

With two projects, it really required a lot of time in terms of investigation, research, experimenting, documentation and presentation. Make sure you and your team-mates work well together and plan your time well. That is a crucial aspect.
Since the science stream students in our school was only 9 of us, we combined our classed together and it turned out great and fun. Of course we had to be serious in obtaining our results for writing reports.

Chemistry Project

The nine of us, together with our 2 very experienced Chemistry teachers,
Mr. Kan (3rd from left), Pn. Marini (5th from left)
and not to forget our lab assistant Pn. Zulikah  (Next to Pn. Marini) 

Biology's experiments were pretty cool this term. We got to do quadrat sampling, extraction of onion's DNA and get to know a genetically modified corn all the way from USA. 

Doing quadrat sampling. 

See that white lump? That's the DNA of onion cells.

Testing pH of soil samples.

A genetically modified corn from USA. 

Term 3 can be considered the term I used to discover more and had lots of fun. I don't know how to describe the feeling but when it comes to an end, you will be sure to treasure more things. My school did not have graduation day for F6s, although it was quite a disappointment but I knew our teachers wanted us to be entirely focus for our final war. I can't wait to meet my teachers in March! 

Currently, all 2015 STPM candidates must had obtain their term 3's results. Well, congratulations to those who had excellent result, and to those who wish to repeat, try you best!!! 

The story of 3 terms of STPM has officially comes to an end. Thank you so much for reading this and I hope you guys out there have ideas on how to paint your own future.

Have you decided what to do next? Whatever you do, be sure that it is the right thing for you. Follow your passion, not from orders. 

"BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. YOU ARE THE GREATEST ASSET OF YOUR OWN DESTINY. HAVE FAITH AND THERE WILL BE MIRACLE" - Sincerely, me. 

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Summary for STPM Term 2

Hey guys, how are you doing? I hope that the STPM 2016 candidates are prepared to cope into the "stressful environment" after a two-months rest. It's has been two weeks since schools all over Malaysia reopen.

Feel refreshed after a long holiday? Have you regain all your energy back and able to fully focus on what is ahead? I hope you are. And if you are not ready for the coming battle, my advice to you is that you HAVE to increase you pace. It's never too late to do the right thing (of course not the last day before exam).

Okay, back to the story, Term 2 had been the least stressful term among those 3. Why? Because I am able to have more time for relaxation as there were less homework to be completed. However it is just my opinion and it does not reflect the same for my friends in the Art Streams. They have more assignments and projects that Science Streams student do.

My advice for Arts Streams students, have proper planning, and do not waste even the tiniest time you have. I saw a few of my schoolmates studying in that stream stay awake until late night just to finish their projects in time before the due date. Trust your seniors advices for they also want the best for you.

In this term, my childhood activity came back (Basically for all F6 students). We did colouring in PA!!!! Yes, it is the only interesting thing to do in this term, but the tedious part it you have to be careful and a careless mistake might make you plunged into the depth of horror (Seriously this is no joke). In this term you are required to learn how to analyse and present data from a given passage and turn it into graphs. (Bear in mind it is not easy tho)

In this term, all F6 students have to (compulsory) complete  an PA assignment given by the Malaysia Exam Council (MPM). Each year has a different theme. The most tiring part is that you have be very systematic as you have do research about what you want to do and plan your own writing and analysis. To add on, you will also have to go out and survey, ask people about their opinions to certain issues and topics related to your assignments. After that, you have to edit your findings endlessly to ensure there is no mistake for the teachers to penalise you. Do not worry too much as your teacher will always be there to help you, but at the same time you also have to work hard if you want a good score. This surely makes a huge impact in your final result.

In this term, you will be also studying about Dasar-dasar Malaysia. You will read about different policies that Malaysia government has starting the day the country is established. It sure will make your head spinning with madness.  

 An example of graphs after interpreting and analysing the information given in passage form.

For Bio students, get yourself fully prepared!!! You will have rat dissection this term. Whether you like it or not, it is a compulsory experiment for Biology this term. Get yourself well prepared for Biology, as this term's topic is about Physiology and it could be a very tough one especially the plants.

Rat dissection. 

[picture on the left] Explanations after the dissection are given by my Bio teacher (Pn.Maziah).

[picture on the right] The structures and the inner organs of the rat after the disection.  

Chemistry was fine. We get to learn different groups of elements in a more depth manner, However, do not jump to conclusion and think it will be easy, nope! You still have to work hard to understand what is going on.

For Maths T, hahaha, you will have to welcome back integration and differentiation. You shall have Calculus for this term. No matter how you dislike it, you still have to face it with all concentration. Bear in mind, it can be very challenging if you do not grasp the basics.

Co-curricular activities were okay as well, we had orientation week for the juniors coming in as STPM 2016 candidates. The Form 6 Society had planned an Explorace for them, and I was put in charge for that. Although there were some moments that we had arguments, rejections and misunderstandings but deep down in my heart I thanked them very much. After all, all hands make light work. I was able to learn how to communicate with them and the final result is a huge satisfaction for me.

Visited the Palace of Justice.

Activities we had. 

My buddies in Science Stream, including me. I missed them already!

In conclusion, Term 2 was considered my favourite term. Well, there were some events that make me felt sad and dull but that's what make life even colourful. Hope you are ready for the challenges ahead.

Do feel free to share your thoughts. 

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Summary for STPM Term 1

Term 1 was considered the toughest term for me as it was the first time for me to go back and study after a half-year "Hibernation" from academic books.

Like any sixth formers all around Malaysia, I thought that Form 6 (I'll put as F6 further down) was just slightly more difficult than F5. Well, it turned out that I was totally wrong. It was not only hard, but was SUPER FREAKING HARD!!! Feel surprised? That was what I felt last year. 

I started studying in Lower 6 Biology in SMK ALAM MEGAH (which was the school I had my secondary education) 

( Logo of my school)

The number of students in that class was not constant until it reached mid-August. It finally left with the five of us. 4 females and 1 male (which is me). That's right. I know what you are thinking. I'm the only male student in the class. Do you know how the teachers describe my class? "The thorn among the roses"

Yes it is. Even my own class teacher agreed to that when she first heard from other teachers. 

I had a difficult time in handling Maths and Chemistry. I had Maths (T) for STPM. The contents in term 1 are the most in 3 terms. I spent so much time on Maths until I only had a short time for the other subjects. Bad time management you can say. The first chapter took us almost 1 and a half month to finish. It was time-consuming and I had experienced a stress that was more severe than during F5. But I didn't gave up. I kept on doing the best I could. 

On the other hand, term 1's Chemistry was also the hardest to me. For those who are going to be entering Science Stream, do remember that Chemistry in Form 5 can only be considered the primary stage of Chemistry. 

In first term, we were exposed to Inorganic, Physical Chemistry. It was hard for me to cope with the subject as it was totally different from what I learned during SPM stage. Luckily for me, I have a chemistry teacher who is always there to explain the things I don't understand and questions that was left unsolved. 

First term's Biology was quite okay for me. It was basically F5's contents but in more details and it requires a higher level of understanding. 

Pengajian Am (I called it General Studies in English) was the only subject in BM. The syllabus in this term aims to know about the structure of Malaysia from top to bottom. From Yang di-Pertuan Agong to Prime Minister and more to go..... The essays in this subject requires us to rewrite in BM, and it was quite a tough one as I did not wrote anything in BM after SPM.

Speaking of co-curricular activities, I managed to participated myself in Uniform Unit and the Society Unit. I completely neglected the Sports Unit. (Don't be like me okay.) Co-curricular activities were okay except that when you have members or "comrades" that are unwilling to support the activities held each time. Well, who am I to judge them? Let's just keep quiet for this. 

That's all for this post. Being in F6 was definitely a huge turning point in my life and being able to go through Term 1 was truly an unforgettable journey. It was not my first choice enrolling to F6 and yet it was not my last choice either.

Of course, there will be some stressful feelings seeing your friends going a different path and you always think of alternate paths other than F6 and said to yourself, "The road not taken". I know it is kinda hard to endure it at first, but once you went through the hardest time, you will sure be proud of yourself. Yes, you may look back and had a glimpse of your journey, but don't stay too long in the past. Let it go.

Besides, you have your friends, family plus teachers supporting you endlessly. What could possibly go wrong with these? 

The class picture I had in Term 1. In this picture, you only see 4 students, the other person was always absent when it comes to big event. 

Paper chromatography experiment for Biology. My favourite experiment of the term. The colours you can see slightly shows the colour of chlorophyll.

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New Year 2016. Stop doing these things!

Hey guys, HAPPY 2016!!! Do you guys have fun in 2015? I bet that each and every one who is reading this post are recalling the memories they have right now. No matter it is sorrow, joyous or heart-aching, let it be the lessons in your life and start a brand new you!!

As for a new year, I wish to re-edit my blog into a brand new site. I'll be writing and posting about the journey I had in Form 6 which already happened in 2014 and 2015. Stay tuned for more. 

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